THE NATURE OF SIN

I recall the physics lessons in high school, specifically that of the elasticity of springs. If my memory serves me right- which I have no doubt it does for it has religiously stored my numerous memories even from childhood- the physics teacher demonstrated how springs are able to extend when they are loaded. You add a load to the spring and it stretches, you offload it and the spring returns to its original shape and size. You load the spring again with a larger load and it stretches more and with the removal of the load it regains its shape and size albeit taking more time. However when the spring is loaded with too much load, it stretches and straightens, never to return to its original shape and size even after the removal of the load. This my analogy might be alien to those who loved to hate their physics teachers but forgive me for it fits my use here in.

One starts with a clear conscience of what wrong and right is, then they choose to test the wrong and feel what it is like. Of course that is easy, what will it hurt just to do it once? What is one puff, one bottle, one night? After all am not an addict I will just stop when I have had this one. The poor soul leads itself to the trapping of its own doing. After this, one feels guilty and deeply sorrowful for having erred.  With the first experience comes the heightened need for more and if one gives in to the urge, they add more load to the spring.  And as the spring is loaded more and more, it loses its elasticity. One feels less guilty now and what they used to condemn they start defending. Their guilt is lost and they feel nothing, they act like nothing and as they soil themselves in sin, they convince themselves with vanity of their lost verbosity.

I surely witnessed this on my way to Kayole in the famous Green and Yellow Forward traveller buses. A large sticker on the bus read “I FEEL NOTHING” and surely the driver and conductor in that bus felt nothing. The unkempt hair of the driver revealed it, what is more, he must have either been blind or ‘felt nothing’ for he paid no heed to any of the traffic rules. The conductor was not better, his breath almost made people drunk, he screamed to everybody even those who were a stone throw from him. They however made me closer to God for I said countless prayers in that bus.

All in all, the nature of sin is in feeling nothing. One starts with a conscious mind clearly knowing right from wrong but with bowing to pressure mostly for pleasure, the conscious is desensitized and what they used to detest is now praised and defended for they feel nothing. Guard your conscious and let it not be loaded beyond repair for you will feel nothing and be nothing but will not even realize as you will be foolishly happy in the firth of nothingness.

RITH@